Tuesday, December 29, 2009

couture yourself.

okay so the new year is approaching!
that means I will be a college girl again yay! in the spring. Idk why I'm not that excited.. I just hope I made the right decision again....so I had the best freaking christmas ever I was not expecting anything since I'm 20 but I got a lot, lol I went to Juicy Couture and went freakin bananas!!! ha I so want to work here I will be going to fill out an application first thing in the morning! Sorry I haven't updated I switched my internet from Comcast to Clearwire, ugh huge mistake but it's working for the moment so I'm goodie!

Monday, December 21, 2009

I love my barb!
haha call me what you want, I'll just call ya jealous.
I relate to Nicki so much because no matter what I will always do things my way!
Some call it stubborn I call it brave, I mean she doing her thing making this money and using hater's FREE PROMO you know that means=more dough
Who in the industry own all their rights.
Playtime been over.

and I love that dress, hahii Robin Thicke a cool cat too

"brevity is the soul of wit"

ever so often, I'm told I'm quiet.
Now usually when a person makes a comment to you about their ideas of you it is usually done so that you can correct the behavior.
When I walk into the room,
I normally just sit back and observe
the more the person sits and talks the more common they become.

I came across this article about the nature, origin rather of BEING QUIET

Being Quiet

Paramhansa Yogananda was once asked why his most advanced disciple, Rajarsi Janakananda, made such rapid spiritual progress. Yogananda replied, “He knows how to listen.”

Our minds are like short-wave radios: when the switch is set to “broadcast,” all we can hear is our own voice talking. A busy, chattering mind is always in “sending mode,” which prevents us from experiencing anything new. We only begin to hear when the switch is turned to “receive.” Similarly, true inspiration comes when the mind is calm and listening. Talking less is a marvelous practice for deepening one’s receptivity in meditation.

Paramhansa Yogananda said that most people use only one-tenth of their ability to concentrate. When you restrain your speech and practice silence, the mind becomes less impulsive. It is not always possible, or appropriate, to be completely silent, but we can practice being quiet. It is estimated that only a tiny part of our speech—some say 1%—is due to the demands of our outer environment. The rest of the time the urge to talk comes from the desire to relate to others. The admonishment given in monasteries, "Do not speak unless you can improve on the silence," is a helpful guideline for appropriate speech and staying inwardly receptive.

How to practice the art of being quiet:
1. Concentrate more on listening to life. Avoid the sense that you have to direct it.
2. Remain centered in yourself.
3.When you feel the urge to talk, restrain your first impulse to do so. Ask yourself, “Will my words contribute to the situation? Improve on the silence? Bless others?”
4.When you break your silence, speak as long as you feel inspiration but no longer; then return to the silence.
5. Enjoy the tranquility. Express a sense of inner calmness in everything you do.

Practice regularly the technique of being quiet. The more you do, the more you will experience its benefits: increased energy, deep concentration in meditation and outward activity, and inner serenity.

-Bharat Cornell


Saturday, December 19, 2009

The Stranger.

My senior year in high school I was forced to take an Advanced Placement class in order to graduate with honors...
Just so happens I suck at math and I had taken all of the history classes my school offered so I took advanced placement english VI

I've always made decent grades without much effort, but it was something DIFFERENT about this new class, my teacher was really a teacher...she not only talked from the text, but also from her heart gosh I learned so much in this class

but anyways this quote is by the author of The Stranger lol now although I failed almost every did.you.read.this quiz I still will never forget the weirdo(the main character). He was an existentialist..He only felt alive when he felt something be it physical or emotional. Albert Camus is a jack ass who made my senior year in high school a year to remember.

To be happy, we must not be too concerned with others.
-Albert Camus

Well put Albert....oops I don't know him personally, I meant Camus ;)

Thursday, December 17, 2009

My first concert was Cashmoney/Ruffryders at the arena in Nashville, Tennessee.
I think I was maybe 9 years old...hahii Weezy was like 16.

I'm so proud of Mr. Dewayne Carter, I mean I really grew up listening to him... it seems like now that he's "mainstream" everybody is jumping on the bandwagon

There was a time when music from southern artists was frowned upon I remember Lloyd Banks(of all people...when is ya next album dropping or did you too "retire") stated that the "south needed to make some better music"

I was like dude turn on the television!!

We internationally known playa...

Gucci Mane #1 on the countdown..Do ya homework

"The south so dirty bitch you couldn't bathe it"

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

today is the past already, I'm just sitting here thinking about my eternity.
I know I have some major demons that I am going to conquer.
Soooo many people to forgive, I just proclaim that I am free in the name of Jesus.
I'm tired of carrying the past on my shoulders and I forgive everybody who may have hurt me in whatever way, and most of all I forgive myself.
I know better and I'm going to do better starting now, you can too.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

You can never do it like meeee!
Nobody can do YOU like you can.
New fave song <3. You can get it at www.younggoldie.com for the free it's worth it.

Like Me.
Never talk about anybody live it
I am a loyal fan of Mr. Harlan Polite better known as Lloyd I been a fan but when we made eye contact @ The Summer Jam
You can look in my life and see what I see but you can never you can never do it like me, once upon we were at the bottom, I didn't like being at the bottom.

Monday, December 14, 2009

It is a funny thing about life. If you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it. -W. Somerset Maugha

today, is the past I'm started to feel like maybe I didn't make the right decision...what is the RIGHT decision. I know I need to stay in school so I can have a better future, but again what is a BETTER future. I have a true passion for being free I, in a way, feel confined.
Maybe I should have stayed in Chattanooga...is that where God wanted me? I fought and screamed to get out of Chattanooga, Tennessee it was like a ghost town...maybe because I was always in mars...always sky high at the end of the day I AIN'T COMING DOWN...I LIKE IT IN THE SKY!


I'll never give up

Saturday, December 5, 2009

See you have now been approached by a player...hey young girl, the world is yours...hey young, the world is yours, hey young girl the world is yours.

Friday, December 4, 2009

who can find a virtuous woman?
I"m under the impression that
once a good girl is gone she's gone forever
could it be that good girls are
indeed bad girls who didn't get caught?
I think the MISTRESS indeed has more fun,

girl power

I have been on some new shit here lately...Coming into a new year...For the next phase of my life I will be traveling the world...experimenting. SO OFF THE HATERS FIASCO. THAT WORD IS USED AND ABUSED TOO MUCH. anyway I'm back in school now as of January...back in Nashville back from Memphis...time to stack my paper and pack it up, I will be posting again as I find solace in writing ya dig?!