Tuesday, December 29, 2009

couture yourself.

okay so the new year is approaching!
that means I will be a college girl again yay! in the spring. Idk why I'm not that excited.. I just hope I made the right decision again....so I had the best freaking christmas ever I was not expecting anything since I'm 20 but I got a lot, lol I went to Juicy Couture and went freakin bananas!!! ha I so want to work here I will be going to fill out an application first thing in the morning! Sorry I haven't updated I switched my internet from Comcast to Clearwire, ugh huge mistake but it's working for the moment so I'm goodie!


Monday, December 21, 2009




I love my barb!
haha call me what you want, I'll just call ya jealous.
I relate to Nicki so much because no matter what I will always do things my way!
Some call it stubborn I call it brave, I mean she doing her thing making this money and using hater's FREE PROMO you know that means=more dough
Who in the industry own all their rights.
Playtime been over.

and I love that dress, hahii Robin Thicke a cool cat too




"brevity is the soul of wit"





ever so often, I'm told I'm quiet.
Now usually when a person makes a comment to you about their ideas of you it is usually done so that you can correct the behavior.
When I walk into the room,
I normally just sit back and observe
the more the person sits and talks the more common they become.

I came across this article about the nature, origin rather of BEING QUIET

Being Quiet

Paramhansa Yogananda was once asked why his most advanced disciple, Rajarsi Janakananda, made such rapid spiritual progress. Yogananda replied, “He knows how to listen.”

Our minds are like short-wave radios: when the switch is set to “broadcast,” all we can hear is our own voice talking. A busy, chattering mind is always in “sending mode,” which prevents us from experiencing anything new. We only begin to hear when the switch is turned to “receive.” Similarly, true inspiration comes when the mind is calm and listening. Talking less is a marvelous practice for deepening one’s receptivity in meditation.

Paramhansa Yogananda said that most people use only one-tenth of their ability to concentrate. When you restrain your speech and practice silence, the mind becomes less impulsive. It is not always possible, or appropriate, to be completely silent, but we can practice being quiet. It is estimated that only a tiny part of our speech—some say 1%—is due to the demands of our outer environment. The rest of the time the urge to talk comes from the desire to relate to others. The admonishment given in monasteries, "Do not speak unless you can improve on the silence," is a helpful guideline for appropriate speech and staying inwardly receptive.

How to practice the art of being quiet:
1. Concentrate more on listening to life. Avoid the sense that you have to direct it.
2. Remain centered in yourself.
3.When you feel the urge to talk, restrain your first impulse to do so. Ask yourself, “Will my words contribute to the situation? Improve on the silence? Bless others?”
4.When you break your silence, speak as long as you feel inspiration but no longer; then return to the silence.
5. Enjoy the tranquility. Express a sense of inner calmness in everything you do.

Practice regularly the technique of being quiet. The more you do, the more you will experience its benefits: increased energy, deep concentration in meditation and outward activity, and inner serenity.

-Bharat Cornell

 

Saturday, December 19, 2009

The Stranger.

My senior year in high school I was forced to take an Advanced Placement class in order to graduate with honors...
Just so happens I suck at math and I had taken all of the history classes my school offered so I took advanced placement english VI

I've always made decent grades without much effort, but it was something DIFFERENT about this new class, my teacher was really a teacher...she not only talked from the text, but also from her heart gosh I learned so much in this class

but anyways this quote is by the author of The Stranger lol now although I failed almost every did.you.read.this quiz I still will never forget the weirdo(the main character). He was an existentialist..He only felt alive when he felt something be it physical or emotional. Albert Camus is a jack ass who made my senior year in high school a year to remember.


To be happy, we must not be too concerned with others.
-Albert Camus


Well put Albert....oops I don't know him personally, I meant Camus ;)


Thursday, December 17, 2009

My first concert was Cashmoney/Ruffryders at the arena in Nashville, Tennessee.
I think I was maybe 9 years old...hahii Weezy was like 16.


I'm so proud of Mr. Dewayne Carter, I mean I really grew up listening to him... it seems like now that he's "mainstream" everybody is jumping on the bandwagon

There was a time when music from southern artists was frowned upon I remember Lloyd Banks(of all people...when is ya next album dropping or did you too "retire") stated that the "south needed to make some better music"

I was like dude turn on the television!!

We internationally known playa...

Gucci Mane #1 on the countdown..Do ya homework





"The south so dirty bitch you couldn't bathe it"

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

today is the past already, I'm just sitting here thinking about my eternity.
I know I have some major demons that I am going to conquer.
Soooo many people to forgive, I just proclaim that I am free in the name of Jesus.
I'm tired of carrying the past on my shoulders and I forgive everybody who may have hurt me in whatever way, and most of all I forgive myself.
I know better and I'm going to do better starting now, you can too.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

You can never do it like meeee!
Nobody can do YOU like you can.
New fave song <3. You can get it at www.younggoldie.com for the free it's worth it.
<3Ashley.

Like Me.
Never talk about anybody live it
I am a loyal fan of Mr. Harlan Polite better known as Lloyd I been a fan but when we made eye contact @ The Summer Jam
You can look in my life and see what I see but you can never you can never do it like me, once upon we were at the bottom, I didn't like being at the bottom.

Monday, December 14, 2009

It is a funny thing about life. If you refuse to accept anything but the best, you very often get it. -W. Somerset Maugha

today, is the past I'm started to feel like maybe I didn't make the right decision...what is the RIGHT decision. I know I need to stay in school so I can have a better future, but again what is a BETTER future. I have a true passion for being free I, in a way, feel confined.
Maybe I should have stayed in Chattanooga...is that where God wanted me? I fought and screamed to get out of Chattanooga, Tennessee it was like a ghost town...maybe because I was always in mars...always sky high at the end of the day I AIN'T COMING DOWN...I LIKE IT IN THE SKY!



I'M SUPER PARANOID LIKE THE SIXTH SENSE-KID CuDI


I'll never give up

Saturday, December 5, 2009

See you have now been approached by a player...hey young girl, the world is yours...hey young, the world is yours, hey young girl the world is yours.

Friday, December 4, 2009


who can find a virtuous woman?
I"m under the impression that
once a good girl is gone she's gone forever
could it be that good girls are
indeed bad girls who didn't get caught?
I think the MISTRESS indeed has more fun,
AIN'T NO WIFEY.

girl power


I have been on some new shit here lately...Coming into a new year...For the next phase of my life I will be traveling the world...experimenting. SO OFF THE HATERS FIASCO. THAT WORD IS USED AND ABUSED TOO MUCH. anyway I'm back in school now as of January...back in Nashville back from Memphis...time to stack my paper and pack it up, I will be posting again as I find solace in writing ya dig?!

Friday, October 30, 2009


MY BEST FRIEND IS MY GRIND. I LOVE MONEY MONEY MAKE ME HAPPY MONEY GOT ME SPAZZIN MONEY LET ME EASE MY MIND MONEY BUY ME THAT CALI MAUI STICK STUPID FRUITY GOT ME GUCCI HA!

I know what time it is....



This is a perfect place where there is no shame. no hate. no war. no hostility. not even love. BUT LOVE the colors mean hope for a new love of a new kind not the same as " I want dat dime" but "that's mine"

Danger.

from the moment I saw her I immediately felt that the show was worth watching you ever crave individuality? Tired of the fucking barbies and no star bitches, take a risk on the dangerous side....


butterflies are new, transformed, I hate to see meaningless tattoos, but why did you get a butterfly on your foot? oh it was pretty! wth!! Ugh I loathe ignorance and following...I love DANGER.






these wonderful works of art were created by Ms. Monica LAURA LEON

Friday, October 16, 2009

rich pit..or broke german shephard?

"You lie down with dogs, you wake up with fleas"
-Papoose

umi says.



Tomorrow may never come
For you or me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never show up
For you and me
This life is not promised

I aint no perfect man
Im trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have
I aint no perfect man
Im trying to do, the best that I can,
With what it is I have

Put my heart and soul into this song [yes yes]
I hope you feel me
>from where I am, to wherever you are
I mean that sincerely
Tomorrow may never come
For and me
Life is not promised
Tomorrow may never appear
You better hold this very moment very close to you [right now]
Very close to you [right now]
So close to you, so- close to you [your moment in history is right now!]
Don't be affraid, to let it shine

heire$$ mentality.

Reach for the ☆☆☆☆☆ and no one can pull you down unless you allow them.

-yo! unique!

self eval.

every now and then I gain some insight and adapt it to my lifestyle.

As the big 2-0 is approaching me like a fat bitch after a cheeseburger...I wonder what I can improve about myself.

Former friends and family members tell me that I always look mean I really don't try to, I think it's the structure of the mouth seriously!! (Dad's genes) but then again it could be past experiences eating me alive, I think I need to let it go!

I know I can hold some MAJOR grudges baby! and I'm working on that as well time is healing it... I do have the tendency to brood "misery loves company" I'm teaching myself how to move on and quit hanging on to DEAD THINGS IT WEIGHS YOU DOWN! I NOW KNOW IT WAS A GIFT FROM GOD THAT MY IPOD WAS STOLEN. ALL THOSE SAD SONGS "REHAB", "IN THE RAIN" CAN WE SAY DEPRESSION EXPRESS!

I GUESS YOU CAN SAY IT DAWNED ON ME LIKE AN EPIPHANY: " i'M 19 years old, educated, beautiful and can overcome ANY obstacle... I'm not giving up.... can you hear me?!

misery loves company.

i'm going to pray for you, get well soon.
addictions have plagued mankind since , well the beginning in that very garden...


snakes in the grass.

can anybody hear me

brevity is the soul of wit.

i log on to myspace mostly to find a way to maximize my re$ources, everyday I log on I feel like somebody's watching me. What started out as an innocent move turned to me being made famous...People dedicate their statuses to me, make subliminal comments and then play dumb. ALL I have to do is delete it, but I think I like it I mean who doesn't like to feel important. . . What is it? Is it my style or the way I roll that make these haters want to hate some more.

IF I DELETE MY ACCOUNT WHAT WOULD YOU SPEND YOUR TIME DOING?

IS THERE REALLY A DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GENIOUS AND INSANITY.

INSANITY MEANS TO DO THE SAME THINGS OVER AND OVER AND EXPECT A DIFFERENT RESULT.

A GENIOUS IS A SUCCESSFUL PERSON, BUT THEY FOUND A STRATEGY AND STUCK TO IT TO REACH THAT STATE OF MIND.

AS I STATED A YEAR AGO, "WHILE I'M WATCHING EVERY NIGGA WATCHING ME CLOSELY."



Thursday, October 15, 2009

bitch.



update:
on a previous blog I had stated my opinion about women referring to themselves as bad BITCHES, that bitch word
as it turns out I am really a bitch, a female dog

a dog is a four legged homo sapien that barks and attacks when need be..

(I do intend to walk over ALL you haters so these extra legs are a plus)

yes I am a BITCH a bad one too.


Beauty.Intellect.Taste.Charisma.Hustle. = Bitch

Beauty inside and outside. Bad Bitches don't get to be cute on the outside but have trashy or simply put fucked up attitudes. Intellect, are you studious? Are you aware of current events? Can you form a correct sentence? Are you articulate? Bad Bitches can back up their ideas with facts. Do you know what you are talking about? Taste is essential for Bad Bitches. No to trash bag fashion. No to bum boyfriends. Charisma and working the room is key for Bad Bitches. Can you close the deal? Can you persuade someone or a crowd? Does what you say matter because of how you say it? Hustle by any means necessary. Bad Bitches capitalize on ideas, they find new ways to work the situation. They Lead and people follow. Those are the essentials and know you need the information and guidance. Subscribe and Follow and Stay tuned. Bad Bitch 101 is in session.....

Thursday, September 17, 2009

confessions from a prideful bitch.

beats on the desks, "ugh unn fuck me fuck me"
in all that I do, I feel EVERYTHING.
i can do ANYTHING I WANT.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

if anybody knew that it was you in ya house

that I was creeping to all the time prolly still do it, cuz I find it hard to keep you off of my mind baby!
REAL OR FAKE ASTROLOGY?


I on the other hand believe it's true! Case in point my scorpio....

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

mad for thy love.

WHAT YOU MAD NOW? CUZ I DONE MAD IT LAUGH NOW.I GOT A POCKET FULL OF SUNSHINE THANKS TO YOU....FALL BACK PEON, YOU WILL NEVER EVER GET THE BEST OF ME. NOT EVER, DUMB FUCK!!! I'M DOWN TO LOSE MY COOL AND COME AND MURK A BITCH. STAY OUT MY LIFE, BLOG, ETC. WHAT A WASTE OF ORGASM!

Saturday, June 6, 2009

Goodbye My Dear.

It's seems like when your fire burns out they disappear but the minute you find the strength to light it again they come back again. There is nothing that irritates me more than shallow peeps who claim they don't care whether you are gravy or not switch like faggots and try to see what you been up to, BETTER THAN YOU TRUST!.... I hate it, but I try to forgive and let grudges die, but deep down it eats me up!!! MY FLESH IS LIKE FUCK THEM, MAKE THEM FEEL WORSE THAN THEY MADE YOU FEEL...but my soul says let it go and move on, forgive but dontlookback. AS MY FAITH CONTINUES TO GROW AND I GET WISER I KNOW THAT I MUST FORGIVE BECAUSE GOD WON'T FORGIVE ME IF I DON'T AND I NEED HIM TO FORGIVE ME FOR THE THINGS I'VE DID IN MY LIFE! I WANT TO TRULY MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOMEONE'S LIFE AND CHANGE THEIR MIND ABOUT WHERE THEY WANT TO SPEND ETERNITY. I GUESS I JUST NEED TO BE EXTRA CAUTIOUS OF THE COMPANY I KEEP AND GUARD MY EYES, EARS , MIND, BODY AND SOUL FROM DECEIT. DECEIT THAT GOD WILL NOT REALLY SEND THE WICKED TO HELL, THAT GOD WILL KEEP FORGIVING ME FOR THE SAME SINS, I WANT TO HEAR WELL DONE. REALLY HE IS ALL I NEED TO GET BY...AND HE GAVE ME ANTONIO. I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER GET OVER THAT DUDE WHO NAME MEANS LIKE GOD HAHAHA HE ACTS NOTHING LIKE YOU LORD. THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME MY HEART'S DESIRES...REAL LOVE AND FRIENDS....IN A NEW CITY. WHERE I CAN MAKE A DIFFERENCE. AND PROSPER. AND LOVE AND FORGIVE. AND TO FULFILL MY DESTINY!

Sunday, May 24, 2009

leyFANaddict.

Yeah


I love you!


YEAH I care.

But if I don't stay on ya mind...then boo...I don't care.

Save what ya saying..tell me what you paying...

Cause dat damn ley don't be playin!

Life with me in it, you know it's the shit.

Life wit out me, let's not even think of it.

Baby boy I want ya...but not that bad.

If I seem too arrogant for ya then honey buns...

kiss my ass! Cuz i'm ley...

and if you ask these hoes about me...

they'll tell ya how I get down!!!!

most of their pages are dedicated to me and i love it!!!

nobody can make you feel inferior without your permission

so please COME HARDER with the "picking"

I consider myself to be grown

and I'm fully capable of handling my own

STOP, LOOK AND STARE AT THE RED CHICK WITH THAT

PIERCING GLARE

GOTTA INTUITION THAT'S STEROID STRONG

ANYTIME I FALL, I WON'T BE THERE FOR LONG

i'm not perfect and i don't claim to be

but I must admit

being real IS something that's in me

walk like I know it's good

my pussy ain't been beat by every wood

I know my worth and floss it well

all I have to do is look and he swell

SEXUALITY is natural to me

consuming most people's energy

but passion

is rare seduce my mind if you dare

yeah ahead of my time i know

but the urge to know more just won't go

I write

I speak

I know

I grow

young, educated, black.

triple triple triple threat

always keen

to find someone on my level

I bleed passion

what's your reaction?

break the rules.


I decided to make a rule book..the rule book to life..relationships..family...and everything after it..You will see the rule..and explanation..and en example...



1. Blood will never be thicker than water.

Family is shady, friends are also..unless you're a twin, trip..etc..you
came in this world alone..and ain't nobody doing no romeo and juliet
type shyt now-a-days..




2. When you have money, you have many friends..when you broke...it's like the sahara desert.

People only flock when it's beneficial for them..when they benefit from
your benefits, they make sure they are beneficial..but when your
benefits fall, which means their benefits are cut, you are no longer
beneficial to them.

You the d.boy, you got cake..you got niggas and bytches..you get served
those papers..guilty on all charges..serving 80% of your sentence..no
phone calls..no money on your books..no letters...



3. C.R.E.A.M

Money is power

It's self-explanitory



4. Be friends first, relationship later.

Never rush in a relationship, be friends first..a week of talking to a person, does not make you ready for the title.

After a week of talking, you and him/her decide to make it
official..but another week later, you realize his/her habits are
something you can't deal with..ended relationship and no chance for a
friendship..



5. Be a mother, be a father.

No matter your age or situation, raise your child to be better than
you. Calming your a man or woman, it's not just a word, it's a
responsibility.

3 kids, still trying to live the life of an adult with no responsibility, not going to work(female)

99.9% you are the father..you become a man, take care of your responsibility, you had sex..your sperm reached her egg(male)



6. Education is key..get one.

Education from k-12 if free..go out and get it..no matter what get some
kind of diploma..high school..g.e.d..get it..and if possible go to
college..community college..trade school..make a life for yourself.

You're filling out an application, and it ask your level of education
and all you can put on as your highest level completed is 10th grade..your chances of
getting that job as now slimed the phukk down...and to think you just
applied to McDonalds..



7. There are no such things as second chances.

No matter what..what is done..what is said..is set in stone..those will forever be held against you.

You did something to someone or did something that was negative..they
may forgive you..but never will you have a second chance to whiteout
what was.



8. There is no way to "act" white or black.

In order to "act" a different race..you have to stereotype their ways
and stereotyping one because of the color of their skin is completely
wrong.

What is ghetto..what is white..



9. Never let a definite become an almost..

If you want it..get it..because an almost is a never

I had something..so close to me..and now I'm singing Tamia..never almost had you..



10. Look at your niece, nephew, little brother, little sister, or some other little child..and that is our future.

Teach them..raise them to become the future..the future..doctors..lawyers..
..senators..president..

I don't think anyone looked at Barack Obama and just knew he was going to be President..but they did raise him to be successful.



11. Different is the new normal.

Dare to be different..don't emulate anyone..

I wear sweatpants and t-shirts on dates...hey I'm not only comfortable..but different.



12. Swagger

Swagger is not picking an outfit that is displayed in a wetseal display window..but it's your confidence and individuality.

My swag is swagtastic..when I'm in the room you know I'm there..whether
I'm in flip-flops and an ambercrombie shirt..or in supras , kid robot
gear and a baseball cap(dont even matter what she wear, lol)



13. What you won't do..the next bytch/nigga will..

No need for definition.

No need for example.



14.You should never regret anything you do.

No matter how bad, that one experience made you grow..therefore, you
know never to make that choice again..meaning you are no longer
ignorant.

I did some phukked up shyt in my past..but I'd be a damn fool to make the same mistakes.



15. Anything you say..can and will be used against you.

Watch what you say..and who you say it to..because when it's a fire..your ass may get burned first.

You fall out with a bytch..your business and others..may get published in NY Times..

i.e. what about that bitch did the whole fam.



16. Stop trying to link music, television, and video games to crimes.

Just because you watch something about murders..does not cause anyone to go out and kill..

I watch porn, play Call of Duty, and listen to Rap..I'm neither a prostitute, a killer, nor a dope dealer..



17. If the glove doesn't fit..move up a size.

Don't change yourself just to fit in..don't become who they want you to be..strive to become who you ARE..

You hanging out with "thugs" and it doesn't fit you..don't become a
suppose to be thug..just be yourself..if they don't accept you..phukk
them..



18. You have one life, live it.

Live your life..if you like jumping off buildings..don't let anyone hold
you back..if you like collecting right toe nails..go get all the right
toe nails you can find.

Don't let anyone hold you back..your life..your happiness.



19. Act your age.

If you are trying to grow braids and you're 30..stop now.Just give it up..you are past grown..JUST GIVE IT UP..

No example needed.



20. Shop in stores that cater to your size.

Wet Seal, 5-7-9, Charlotte Russe, and all those other stores..only
cater to the little and slightly thick..if you wear a 18 and your
breast and stomach combined weigh my size..don't shop there..

High waisted shorts, pants, capris, really don't look right if you weigh 253 pounds..esp if it's all in your stomach..

but shid don't get it twisted don't lose weight just to appeal to people, eat yo vegetables extra cheese and broccoli, only a dog wants a bone

i.e:"i'm looking for a bad bitch, thick and kinda healthy"..."I be looking for something THICK and red"



21. Your friends girlfriend/boyfriend is off limits.

Just because she/he is back on the market..they used goods in your eyes.

No example needed..just sad.



22. Respect the dead.

No explanation, just read the example.

At this one particular funeral, weed was placed in the casket..a fight
broke out...and people just walked out as soon as the preacher started
talking..sad...



23. The way you live..will be the way you die..

If you lived a good life..you will have a peaceful death..If you lived
the life of killing, robbing, dealing..that will probably be the way
you die.

My homie was a killer..and he got shot in the back of the head at The Place..by some phukk niggas..



24. Love hard.

You don't want to end up losing that special someone because they felt like they were being neglected and not loved.

No example...sad face..



25. (For the men)..your shoes are important.

When a chic meets you..her eyes go in this order..shoes..jeans, face..if your shoes are phukked..game over.

See a chic..you go talk to her..she looks at your shoes and then says
she has a boyfriend or hesitates on her next set of words..you failed
the test.



26. (For the females)..keep your hair done..

No matter what you have on..your hair tells the story..it means..that
even when you rockin sweats and tees..you did take pride in your hair..

No example..



27. Every nigga/bytch phukkin the same bytch/nigga but at different times.

Says it all..



28. Don't be the 3a.m. chic.

If you only hear from a dude between the times of 12mid and 4a.m. leave him the phukk alone.

He calls..you answer..and the first thing he ask is where you at and
you answer at home..then he says I'll be there in 15mins..you just his
phukk toy..leave him alone..



29. Facebook and MySpace fued is stupid.

Why would you dedicate your entire status updates to a bytch/nigga that you don't like..day in and day out..

"that's my man".."he knows where home is".."i'mma beat his ass"..all that shyt is pointPHUKKINless..



30. Ignorance is contagious.

People spread ignorance around like a cold..you heard something, not
knowing if it's true or not, just yapping to the next person..

EXAMPLE>>>GOSSIP



31. QUIT PHUKKIN SAYING CONVERSATE.

THE CORRECT PHUKKIN WORD IS CONVERSE...YOU WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO
CONVERSATE WITH SOMEONE..BUT YOU SURE CAN CONVERSE WITH SOMEONE.

GOOGLE IT..LOOK IT UP..RESEARCH IT..



32. He who is without sin..cast the first stone

Read John 8:1-11



33. The dope game is hard.

For these little boys who think they really selling dope when they have
to call someone just to get less than a gram..you not selling dope..you
just a bytch in the game.

Not even going to give you an example because that's just too much information.



34. Having money ain't everything is just a slogan that only broke bytches/niggas use..

Everyone nigga/bytch with cash..know that cash is everything..i.e. #3.



35. Tim Tebow suck..John Parker Wilson is the shyt..

sorry..just a random moment..



36. Just because you see someone in the club that does not mean you run and add them on myspace and facebook..

That kind of makes you a stalker and hella weird.



37. Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.

No explanation, nor example.(while i'm watching EVERY nigga watching me closely)



38. Just cause he's your baby daddy..DOES NOT MAKE HIM YOURS..

bytches need to get that correct and refer to rule #27..you just got knocked up..

LOL...no example...LOL!!!



39. If you're over the age of 25 and still stay with your parents..you are officially a loser..

I gave it 25 because some are still in grad/medical school and by
25..you should have saved enough to get an apartment..condo..loft..so
mething of your own...

I know someone like this..LMAO..it's okay babe...LOL..



40. There is no such thing as love at first sight.

For first sight can only mean love to the physical appearance..

No example.



41. Instead of cheating..just break up for a day..and apologize.

Cheating is uncalled for..if another bytch/nigga got something you
want..don't hurt the sig. fig..just have an intermission and when it's
over..press play.

LOL..no example..



42. Choose your friends wisely.

There's a difference between friends and associates..know the differences.

Refer to rule 15..



43. Collect haters.

They come with benefits..they keep your motivation high and ya name in the tabloids..they're your number one fan..

Ashley is in Georgia, but my name is a legend in Nashville, don't know
how I'm suppose to be doing all this stuff..but I guess I'm
superwoman...LMAO



44. Stand beside your man/woman whether they are right and wrong.

A relationship is commitment..

..



45. Understand the word REAL.

There are no stipulations to the word..no way to get around it..if you
claim you're a real bytch/nigga..keep it 100 plus 5..don't slack..

FOR THE PHUKK NIGGAS/BYTCHES..SNITCHING AIN'T REAL



46. Honor thy father and mother.

If you can't respect your roots..you can't respect what's yet to come.



47. If you have one parent..make them feel like they are your mother and your father.

You will never know what it feels like to be both parents all at once..show love..

I give my ma something for mothers and fathers day every year and make sure that she knows i love her on the other 363 days.



48. DON'T SNITCH

YOU WILL OFFICIALLY BE A PHUKK NIGGA/BYTCH..THE END..PERIOD



49. Run by yourself.

Can't be no snitches..if you do it all on your own..
(i'm known to walk alone but im alone for a reason)



50. Don't hesitate on talking to a male/female..because a second later he/she can be someone else's sig. fig.(significant figure)

Show your interest..make your ground..don't just be a ghost in there brain..make sure he/she knows you're interested.



51. When you know he/she has a girlfriend/boyfriend..don'
..t get mad later.

When you first met him/her and they told you they have a sig. fig and
you're kool with it..later on down the line don't get mad because
you're not the main comsumption of their time..



52. Sex does not mean that he/she likes you.

It's just sex..not marriage.



53. (females) If your dude is locked up, stay by his side.

Write those letters, send those pics, answer the phone, put money on
his books. He made you his chic for a reason, be that real bytch and
stick beside him and show him the love he needs.

I got $50 on my phone..send those letters and pics every chance I
get..just to let him know..I'm going to be here regardless the bad or
good..



54. (males) If you enter a relationship with a female who has children.
You have not only entered a relationship with that female, but her kids
as well.

You get the girl..and you get the kids..not asking you to become
stepfather..but you have to know that her children just became apart of
your responsibility.



55. Always wear a condom.

Niggas dirty and bytches on some trif shyt.

Lil' Wayne said it best..."safe sex is great sex..better wear a
latex..cause you don't want that late text..that I think I got that
shyt or I'm late text"{Ace Brooks}


silly wabbit.


I myself is guilty of calling myself a BADD BITCH. It wasn't until recently I figured that was a lie. I even grew angry when a guy told me I wasn't one...BUT he was right. I am far more valuable than a female dog. In fact according to Romans my value is above rubies...So when you see me salute. It amazes me at how much I see ignant ass shit "I'm a bad bitch, 5 star bitch, that bitch, the baddest bitch", sweetie YOU'RE ROYALTY remember that.
"I know I'm special cuz God don't make no junk"

Saturday, May 16, 2009

It's ALL starting to come so clear to me..


tommorrow ain't really guaranteed.I avoid people
i avoid you because you are not going to hurt me again....FUCK I LOOK LIKE?

So it's almost my second month at Job Corps and I am almost certified, My phlebotomy instructor is trying to get me a job in the clinic she used to work at making $18.75/hour....THAT'S WHAT LEY LIKE.
I'm too bored maybe I should call dude he seem like he may have a good head on his shoulders, plus he passed the basic assessment, I JUST hope he know how to work the middle and stroke it for Ley!!! HAHAHAHAHA NYMPHO SPIRITS LEAVE ME ALONE!!! UGH!!!!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

Gotta Aquafina Flow Call It WET WET


it's been a minute! Well I'll have you know I have been very busy and making PROGRESS! So I had my exit interview for Job Corps and I'm leaving Tuesday!!! That was fast as hell, I just knew it would be late April before I left, you know I'm kinda excited yet sad for some reason IDK I'm going to miss some people, but it's only for a year...It seems like long, but it's really not.....I'm nervous as shit about this drug test I'm going to kROGER first thing in the morning to cope that Sure Jell(perservatives) I'm praying that I pass this drug test if I don't I'll be placed on a 30 day probational period and be placed in Rehab and if I don't pass the 2nd one it's a wrap, but I don't even want to have to go through allat, I want to just pass and get this show on the road I been drinking water and I been in that fucking hot ass steam room and exercising like crazy I'm so exhausted but the benefits would be long term for this short term hassle so it balance out perfectly...I have turned down so much weed this weekend and it has been fairly easy, shit I gotta pee now I just drank 64 oz of water trying to get this thc out my damn system I hope it's just a urine piss test and not that damn hair shit because that traces your last 90 days if that's the case my ass is grass but I'm just keeping the faith and pissing accordingly! ciao.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Sycamore.

NeVa LeT uR PaST BeCoMe uR PReSeNT...

LeaRN FRoM uR MiSTaKeZ aND CoNTiNue MoViNG FoRWaRD

[[CoNSTaNTLy LooKiN BaCk WiLL Do NuTHiN BuT CauSe u To LoSe SiTe oF WuTz AHeaD]]

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Ganja Queen.


O.K SO I SLIPPED UP A WHILE AGO, MY BOY HAD SOME DRO I COULDNT PASS THAT UP, BUT HE WAS TELLING ME ABOUT SOME SHIT YOU MAKE JELLO WITH CALLED PESERVATIVES THAT WORKS THE NIGHT BEFORE I TAKE MY DRUG TEST FOR JOB CORPS, SO I SHOULD BE GOOD I TAKE IT IN 2 WEEKS I JUST AIN'T GONE SMOKE NO MO' FROM THIS MOMENT FORWARD, GUESS I'LL JUST GET PISSY DRUNK EVERYNIGHT, SIKE!!! YOU CAN HAVE THAT SHIT!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

you ain't gotta lie craig you ain't gotta lie.

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I NEVER THOUGHT HE WOULD HAVE SUCH AN IMPACT ON MY LIFE, BUT THANKS TO HIM AND "THAT BULLSHIT" I FOUND A PIECE OF MY MIND, EMOTIONALLY AND PHYSICALLY......THANK YOU FOR SETTING ME FREE...IT FEELS SO GOOOD TO BE FREE YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH(IN PLEASURE VOICE LOL)...MY VOICE RATHER, I JUST FOUND OUT HE WAS A CHILD MOLESTER...WE DON'T DO THEM KIND...updated:12-04-2009

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Dear God, make me a bird so I can fly far far far away from here!!!

  • diploma,
  • 2 more references
  • high school transcript
  • 12 noon
  • friday
So I just spoke with an admission counselor from Job Corps, and those are the items(in red) that I need to bring for "the interview" scheduled this Friday at noon. ... Just my luck now I have to wait all weekend for things to go through I hate this part and lord please grant me the serenity to accept the things that I cannot change!!!

Since there is no JoB CorPS here in Nashville(THANK GOD), I have the choice of going to Florida, Texas, or Georgia!!! Maybe I might be in ATL afterall!!! Here lately I been thinking about the east coast and the west coast...."Ain't Nothing Like A Brooklyn Girl" I heard lol shit I remember Tanisha from Bad Girls Club POP OFF SON!!! lol Brooklyn go hard!!! JAY Z said it best......NEW YORK the fashion capital of the world vs. It never rains in southern California...I love warm weather my sun kissed skin is soooo pretty bringing out the natural redness in my REDBONE complexion, I love my ethnicity I would NEVER want to be white and just to think my former ancestors probably wished they were WHITE!!! oh look how far we've come I loved BLACK TO THE FUTURE!!! I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN INTERESTED IN JOB CORPS....


BECAUSE OF THE DORM STYLE LIVING AND THE FACT THAT IT IS FREE OF CHARGE. WITH ALL THESE BENEFITS ONE MUST THINK TO HIMSELF:WHAT IS THE CATCH? The catch is actually getting into the program I met the basic requirement:16-24 years of age, income requiremennt(unemployed), DRUG FREE-"Oh no!!!" I felt my heart skip a beat when I came across the word drug. The thing about me is I have the tendecy to be obsessive/compulsive which is why I find myself in certain situations, because I just don't know when to quit, I know that you're supposed to balance everything in your life, I guess that's the "lil bit" of libra in me....you see I'm a scorpio(yeah so naughty and mysterious)AND HAVE BEEN A CHRONIC WEED SMOKER SINCE I WAS 15 YEARS OLD, POUNDS I DONE SMOKED A FEW!!! It has only been a week since I have last smoked any cannibus sativa!!!

Honestly, I don't know why I feel like I have to have it sometimes. True, it makes me forget about all my mishaps and past relationships but at the same time it is also apart of my problem "anything that is not a part of the solution is apart of the problem"-guy from SOBER HOUSE. The whole time I am high I am constantly craving salty and sweet foods, this phase is called the munchies; it's accompanied by a paranoid feeling that I'm being watched by some evil force that is out to get me(which is true:the devil comes forth to kill, steal, and destroy), my brain cells are also being fryed and short loss memory loss is MORE possible....I can physically feel the destruction weed is doing to me, but I still COULD NOT STOP. It is becoming easier and easier everyday for me, I just try to keep busy (twitter, myspace, facebook and now my new best friend, YOU) don't GIVE UP ON ME, don't walk out on me like a lot of other people have I NEED YOU.

SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE HELL WENT WRONG?...

I thought once I walked across the stage to get my hard earned diploma that would be the end of that!!! So anxious to start college in another city meant soooo much to me. Not only did I have a fresh new start, but I had a "renaissance", or "rebirth". I was going to University of Tennessee-Chattanooga, not my choice, but my moms(which is the main reason why I was not successful, because I wasn't passionate about it) My first choice was Howard University, followed by Clark Atlanta, or Hampton in Virginia. At the time of my graduation I was 17 years old not yet legal to make decisions, so I comprised with my mom and went along with UTC; afterall, the apartment style dorms were quite elaborate and complimented my princess style. So it's my second week in school I'm not really feeling it, but my cousin went there with me so I was cool. Yeah this particular cousin was always the ho, and you know hoes always know where the green is! Sure enough it's a hot summer Sunday day and I'm at the annual Oak Street Roast grubbing on a hotdog that was on point lol I fucked it up and didn't care who was watching, the girls I was with trying to look cute and shit and acting like they were not hungry, because the lil fraternity dudes was out looking real good and GAY lol, nobody to impress in my opinion...So I had been asking the ho if she knew someody who had the green and sure enough she did! She whispered in my eye the girl behind me"Brittney Jordan" was gone slip a dime sack of weed in my pocket and to remain looking straight ahead so I did as I was told and five minutes later I had a dime sack of weed in my pocket I couldn't wait until I got back to my room, my cousins and their friends wanted to go riding around the city that night to see what was poppin' I knew not shit would be poppin' on a Sunday night in Chattanooga as I knew from the annual family reunions we had every year and still do in lame ass Chattanooga. That's part of the reason I think moms wanted me to go, because we have family there...so anyways I make up some lie that my stomach was cramping just so I could go back to my room and get started on rolling my blunts! lol I didn't have a car yet, so I don't remember how I got a cigar! oh yea I went to the lil town hall market where they sell em' on campus! lol just encouraging a nigga to smoke! Mind you, I'm still 17 years old not able to yet purchase tobacco, but you know a nigga like me gone be prepared to overcome ANY obstacle! As a result, I had my homie Nia's ID chingy!!! lol got my rellos and headed back to my room in the 4000 building! more coming soon...O.K TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT I MET THE WRONG PEOPLE, YOU KNOW THE FAKE ONES, I HAD END UP GETTING REAL CLOSE AND PERSONAL WITH THIS FAKE ASS NIGGA WHO IS THE SHALLOW TYPE THAT CAN'T DEFEND HIMSELF AND IS SCARED OF WHAT PEOPLE THINK ABOUT HIM, I THOUGHT HE WAS REAL EVEN THOUGH ON SEVERAL OCCASIONS I FOUND OUT HE WAS WORKING WITH THEM PEOPLE, HE WOULD TALK ABOUT ME BEHIND MY BACK AND EVEN HAD THE NERVE TO LIE TO ME ABOUT SOME BULLSHIT, I QUIT MY JOB AT SUNTRUST AND LEFT IT ALL JUST TO BE WITH MY HOMIE, SO MAYBE I WANTED TO BE MORE THAN FRIENDS, BUT HE DIDN'T SO THAT'S THAT ON THAT, I GUESS WHAT I LEARNED IS THAT SOMETIMES YOU JUST HAVE TO LET IT BURN! NEVER PUT OFF YOUR PLANS FOR SOMEONE ELSE AND ALWAYS FOLLOW YOUR INSTINCTS. ALWAYS! IT'S TIME TO MOVE ON NOW SERIOUSLY, I'LL WATCH OUT FOR THE SNAKES FROM NOW ON, I HAD NO IDEA GUYS ARE SOMETIMES WORSE THAN FEMALES! i TRIED TO ACT LIKE IT NEVER HAPPENED BUT I LEARNED IN PSYCHOLOGY WHEN YOU TRY TO MAKE YOUR MEMORY FORGET ABOUT SOMETHING, YOU ACTUALLY WILL THINK ABOUT IT MORE, BECAUSE YOU'RE TELLING YOUR MIND TO FORGET ABOUT IT, IT'S A REMINDER THAT SOMETHING INDEED DID HAPPEN! FACE THE FUNK AND DEAL WITH IT, HE IS NOT THE FIRST PERSON WHO HURT MY FEELINGS AND THE FUCKED UP PART IS HE WON'T BE THE LAST, I HAVE NO REGRETS AT THIS POINT JUST A LESSON LEARNED.-ASHLEY